2 days ago I saw the hugest squirrel ll I've ever seen in my life. and I've been all over the USA, and I've seen the different sizes of squirrels. this thing was giant. it's body was the size of a cat, and it's tail was probably the size of a cat as well (very bushy). 6 years ago at my ucnles house, in this same state (WA) I saw a giant huge wood pecker. I mean. larger than most hens HUGE!. and just now this morning I saw a huge GIANT spider. don't get me wrong, it wasn't huge as far as spiders go. but for the type of spider it was. it was probably about 3 to 4 times it's normal size. kind of like that squirrel, kind of like that wood pecker. GIANT!.
now I remember growing up, I had a few native american Friends. and they'd tell me tales about the giant animals, that live in this state. they say they grow to giant sizes, and its because of the magic that exist inside of Mount Rainer (Mount Tahoma). that it's an energy that makes creatures grow, and that the native's considered them to be a god of their own kind. like that large squirrel, i saw, would be considered a god of the squirlles. and the wood pecker i saw with my uncle, about 3 to 4 times larger than the average wood pecker. the natives might have noted it was a god of the wood peckers.
so that spider, that I sprayed with bug poison. for about 3 minutes straight before it fell down and scurried under the crack between the carpet and the wall. i wonder. was I spraying the god of that type of spider? was i trying to kill a god, because it frightened me? if it was a normal sized spider. I don't believe i would have killed it. if it was a normal sized spider i would have probably wrapped it in a paper towwel and thrown it outside. i know what type of spder it is. it's normaly about 1/4 that size. but it looked like all those same smaller ones. exactly the same... and we don't have poisenous spiders in this state. ... i don't know. it just bugs me. that I might have killed what is known as a god to somebody elses culture. although ... even though the bug spray said it killed spiders. it seemed to not do anything to this spider. but I'm sure it's dying under the carpet somewhere....
i'm pretty sure once upon a time there were huge spiders on this planet. giant ones. and we killed them all. ... great I got a bloody nose. now I gotta wonder, is the bloody nose from breathing in all that poison I was spraying? or is it for some other reason... like karma XD, not that i'm a firm believer in karma, but i am a firm believer, in anything that hasn't been dis-proven is possible. so any time something bad happens to me, after I do something bad, I always tell myself there is a 0.001% that its karma related. but then again. it's probably just my heart rate was up because i saw a huge spider. (GIANT!!!) and the increased heart rate, increased my breathing. making me deeply inhale the poison. that's probably it.
oh well, what ever, is what ever right.
btw, I had a strange dreams that I turned a few humans into mosters. it was creepy. because it was all scientific. and shit. i made a human that is a missing link between humans and pigs on the DNA strand they were like zombie human pigs. giant monsters. that ate anything and acted out in huge rages.
and it makes me giggle. because i know Al Gore would have claimed it was Man-Bear-Pig. but still in the dream for some reason. they wouldn't eat babies. and sadly in my dream. humans started to strap babies on their bodies and wear them as shields hiding their guilt behind child like innocence. because later in the dream we found out they didn't eat the kids because they were innocent. and they only ate humans that were soiled with sins. people of any faith, any creed, it didn't matter how faithful they were or who they worshiped. all that mattered was their guilt. and the monsters would devour them. and so humans wearing the babies would have their legs and arms chewed off and the monsters would carefully remove the babies from the adults bodies and then eat the adults.
also these monsters, ate computers, and anything with computer technology, such as cell phones, and Ipods.
at the end of the dream, before I woke up. a government group tracked down the creation of these monsters, back to my house. and I woke up
but I decided against it. because I'm pretty sure it would cause some un needed drama on these forums. so for the sake of this forum. I decided not too.
I remember a long time ago on giygas.net, back when it was up. somebody simply expressed he liked the forums at giygas.net better than the ones at starmen.net. and all of a sudden about 30 members joined just to bash that. to complain. and troll how much better starmen.net was, and then the forums got hacked and destroyed, ... and I'm pretty sure that wouldn't happen to a site made by mato. but still. I believe it would bring drama still here is the message I didn't write: "I never went under the name kyoo till very recently. I go by kyoo because I can't remember my old name.I've forgotten my name. I'v misplaced my online Identity.
anyway. after I forgot it I made up the name CStanleyF9, and felt I would be welcomed back with love to starmen.net. I figured... why not. it's been a couple years, but even with my new Identity, I'm sure they'd recognize me and love me. hahahah boy was I wrong. I was ridiculed and hated on by every member of starmen.net. I asked myself. when did Starmen.net become so evil and corrupt? and I found out by other members of starmen.net, that never left, the exact time they went evil was when they became an actual business (fangamer.net) that they treated their web forums more like a business, and less like a fan forum. everyone there is extremely opinionated, and mass biased. thats why I moved here with my new name. I feel the people on this forum. are the realest fans. only because they can express themselves openly, and honestly. without any fear of ridicule, because they didn't present them self in a buisiness frienly method.
I truly believe that fan gamers slogan should be, "if your opinion doesn't coincide with my opinions, they're 100% wrong and you're an idiot" because that's how they all act over there.( they even word filtered the word fetus, as a way to censors other, true opinions) I'm not biased because I'm banned. I've communicated with several members starmen.net, and many of them feel they can't truly express themselves as fans, over at starmen.net, but still they all gather there, because it's known as "the place to gather for earthbound fandom" but I feel, if there was a competitor for starmen.net, that didn't "share" anything with starmen.net (no links, or claims starmen.net sucked, and in comparison really did) that starmen.net would fail, that fan gamer. net would fail. and they'd not realize it's because of how evil and how judgmental they've all become.
the PURE FACT THAT I WAS BANNED PROVES HOW CORRUPT THEY TRULY HAVE BECOME!, I'm not saying that I'm a perfect fan, but I posted on there, the same way I post on any forums. hell I was even ridiculed for complimenting somebody's avatar(for being nice), the higher ups on that forum are bullies, and if they can't bully you, they ban you. it's worse than gamefaqs mods" if I was ever to make a earthbound/mother fan site, I'd make sure to make it the greatest piece of gold on the web. make it 500 times better than starmen.net and never associate myself with them. and if I found my links on there websites. I'd higher lawyers to make serious threats to take all links down or else, (including links made by fans in forums).
I would make myself the competitor, I've learned how to grow and cultivate good web forum mods,there would be form. but without the ridicule. eventually all I'd have to do is just have people be nice on the forums. and eventually, I know, starmen.net would be a thing of the past, because, the fans, they don't want to be at starmen.net, they feel they have to be there, it's the only place that will accept them. starmen.net needs competition... maybe someday, when I have a lot of freedom. I'll make my own fan website, one that doesn't work with starmen.net , but instead, works against them, and does it better. they would all loose their business.
but fandom shouldn't ever be about making money. if anything fandom, should be the source of joy and love that makes you go poor. to me, reid, is the antichrist, of "true fandom"
my eyes are burning. my throat burns, my nose is clogged and bleeding, my skin is itching. I FUCKING HATE ALLERGIES!!!!
eck I feel like shit. I'm over heating. what ever furniture I sit in it becomes really warm. it's been years since I've been a furnace. I used to be a human furnace. I'd heat up everything I sat in. much like I do now. people would love sitting in the chairs I once sat in. because they'd be so warm. and that stopped around 2004... but it's starting again. strange thing is. around 2004 is the same time my allergies stopped bugging me.
don't get me wrong. I've always had allergies. but around 2004, they became tiny bothers. something in the background that I could easily look over. I remember from 2004 up till 2010, I thought it was so very odd that they almost seemingly vanished. and I couldn't help but notice around the same time my furniture heating ability also left me.
and now... I'm almost completely immobilized from my allergies like I was back in the day. and the furniture feels like somebody put a heater behind it when I get off of it
I felt it was odd. it was stragne, it was almost as if I became a different human that change in 2004, not in my mind. but in my physical form. like I wasn't a different person on the inside. but one on the outside. and what I mean by inside is in my mind. and what I mean by outside. I mean my entire body including my innards .
it's as if my brain was put in a stronger body that doesn't heat up. that's how odd it felt to suddenly not need allergy pills. to not heat up the furniture so much that it starts to feel like I'm in an oven if I don't move to another piece of furniture...
but suddenly 2 days ago... allergies and heating up. as if my brain returned to my old body... so odd.
now I know I never changed bodies. I'm just saying it's like I did. what made me revert I wonder?
I wonder because... although I missed my ability to heat up furniture... it was always good for women. because my body warmed them too. but I could never miss allergies.
even the physical embodiment of pure evil was born as an innocent child.
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I don't know why, I just felt we all needed to be reminded. that he wasn't born the embodiment of evil. he became that way after human interaction. it was the humans that broke his heart, that drove him insane. he used to always wag his tail, the only time he didn't wag his tail. was when he heard that song. the song has always made him sad. although the song itself is song about the power of love. I imagine it just reminded him of how alone he was. then he got abandoned, then he got betrayed. the only family he had, abandoning him. and betraying him. enough to fill him with rage. but having the offspring of that family sing the song to him again, was his last straw. he went insane with rage. and became the pure embodiment of evil. he became a God. all of this because he was given human love. it's this that has taught me that an equal negative exist in all positives. and I feel in order for him to become the form of pure hatred, that he must have experienced the truest form of love first. and it was that love that made him evil. love that was so powerful. it made the woman who shared it a goddess. yes the tale of Giygas is a tragedy that doesn't end with Giygas. his life was so tragic, it permanently effected a little boy making him twisted and perverse. and this little boy himself, became a god, just by becoming acquainted with Giygas. this little boy, really brought the meaning to Giygas's Tragedy.
I feel that all of what porky did, was a physical demonstration of the pain that existed inside giygas. a model of what was going on inside of giygas's heart. a friend of mine told me he believed that Mother 3 took place in the dragons Magicant. and part of me thinks that's possible. but another part of me wonders if it's Giygas's Magicant, and somehow Porky got sucked into it.
now I don't know what a Magicant is. but I do know the only people that have magicants are somehow related to Giygas, and I'm saying this stating that Itoi said if you want Ninten and ness to be the same character they are. meaning they are the same. meaning Ness is the grandson of queen marry...
on mother 1, you enter queen Mary's magicant, in earthbound you enter Ness's Magicant, and in mother 3. you don't encounter anyone's magicant. this is probably due to the fact, that you're already existing in a magicant. either it be the dragons, or Giygas's or even Porkies.
